I’ve come tonight, I’ve come to know…

…the way we are, the way we’ll go…

In the interests of prodding myself into blogging (and thus into writing in general) I’m posting that survey I was so impressed with a post or two ago. Enjoy! And repeat. And then tell me about it so I can read all about you, too.

1.I’ve come to realize that my body…is probably in both better and worse shape than I think it is.

2. I’ve come to realize that my job…is much more than that.

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving..must have music. Frankly, almost anything I do must be accompanied by music, but driving absolutely demands it, else I’ll be incredibly bored and probably cause a horrific interstate pile up. I sing show tunes a lot when I drive.

4. I’ve come to realize that I need…only about half the things I really want.

5. I’ve come to realize that I have lost….nothing that I cannot live without. Not to say I won’t miss things, but…

6. I have come to realize that when I am drunk…ok, you know, I’ve never actually been drunk. I’ve been tipsy; I get either very amorous or very sleepy. I expect drunk would be more of the same.

7. I have come to realize that my health…is something to pay daily attention to. “Young” and “old” don’t matter. “Healthy” and”unhealthy” do.

8. I’ve come to realize that money…will always be in short supply, no matter how much you actually have. Best learn to make do, yes?

9. I’ve come to realize that certain people…contain lifetimes of inspiration.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always…question.

11. I’ve come to realize that my mom…is the most amazing person I know.

12. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone…is a vital tool. And a leash. But mostly that first one.

13. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning…I really had to pee. (Yeah. Sorry. I’m rarely brilliant or insightful before noon, unless I have to teach.)

14. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep…I was alone, and ok with that.

15. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking…that my ipod is dying.

16. I’ve come to realize that my dad…is as irrelevant as I always suspected.

17. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook…I feel a little more connected. Though perhaps this is illusion.

18. I’ve come to realize that today…was one of those days where nothing goes quite right. This is what comes, sometimes, of obligating yourself to others. This is what, comes, sometimes, of being alive.

19. I’ve come to realize that tonight…will be vintage horror movie awesomeness.

20. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow…I really need to clean the bathroom. Seriously, it won’t clean itself. I keep asking, but my bathroom is unreasonable.

21. I’ve come to realize that I really want to…get a PhD. Because having done the work for an MA already…even though an MFA would be different and challenging, I feel th need to push myself that much further. And really, Dr.Wakefield sounds so much cooler than Ashley Wakefield, MFA.

22. I’ve come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is…is reading it now. 🙂

23. I’ve come to realize that in life…”one has to face a huge assortment of nauseating fads and good advice.”- that show tunes habit telling on me again. Oh, Aida.

24. I’ve come to realize that this weekend…has been, so far, more productive than I thought it had.

25. I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset…..is the Ramones. I also listen to them when I’m happy. Ramones, multi-mood msuic.

26. I’ve come to realize that my friends…are very precious.

27. I’ve come to realize that this year….is change. Whether I want it or not. And really? I do.

28. I’ve come to realize that all my ex friends…are in that category with good reason.

29. I’ve come to realize maybe I should…leap. The results are generally good. I mean, I’m good with the looking before and all, but leaping. That’s where it’s at.

30. I’ve come to realize that I love…words. Really? Really.

31. I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand…delibrate cruelty.

32. I’ve come to realize my past…is what got me here. And I like here. There are bits of my past that make me cringe; I think I’d change some if I could. But they did get me here, and that counts for a lot.

33. I’ve come to realize that parties…are fun! I spent so long being not really a fan, thank of parties. This year seems to be about discovering my inner extrovert. (Is that a contradiction? Oh, well, so am I.)

34. I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified…of being utterly rejected by phd programs my first time aound. I actually try not to think about the possibility that much. Also, I’m afraid of rheumatoid arthiritis. It’s low on the list of things tht maybe-possibly-could-be wrong with me, but I’ve seen what RA does to hands. I need my hands. I need to write and sew and knit. Can you knit with your feet?

35. I’ve come to realize that my life…will only ever be what I make it be.

One thought on “I’ve come tonight, I’ve come to know…

  1. First, there are Chinese medicine balls, which you can rolls around in your hands to keep them limber. There are also buckeyes–according to I think it’s Scott Russell Sanders’ grandpa. And there is a yoga kriya I can show you at some point that rids your hands of arthritis. But you CAN knit with your feet. You can also brush your teeth.

    Second, you are the surest bet for a ph.d. program ever. A sure thing. A guarantee.

    And regarding your tendency to question, I’ll tell you a line in my Butterfly Nail manuscript, “We answer ourselves, thus the only trouble must be not asking.”

    So keep asking!

    much love,
    a

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